Hello!

Welcome! To me, after an absence of.. hmmm, almost three weeks! Wow, long time no blog. Reason being, I recently started working and whatever free time in the evenings was spent on catching up doing house chores. I know this must sound foreign to the majority of people out there who have a live-in domestic help. Anyhow, I had a whole new routine to adjust to, Joseph included.

We wake at 6am, William leaves the house by 6.30am, while I was still preparing son & self to depart for school and work. By 7.10am, Joseph had been deposited at the door of the childcare, wailing loudly (sigh...!). I breakfast in the bus, stealthily munching bread, hoping that no one would accost me for this minor misdemeanour. The rule disallowing eating in buses was for maintainance of cleanliness, and I am, after all, no messy-eater. Still, I was amused to see other commuters eating their bread in the same shady manner.

I work part-time in a health screening centre in Orchard Road, with regular hours and in a posh environment... but it is not a nice place to be in. I began to understand why they had to resort to getting a locum nurse. They had failed to hire and retain a full-time staff nurse because of I believe, poor management. There is no cohesion, no team spirit instilled, everyone is for self-survival, "siam" work, sabotage each other, blame game, who's the meanest wins... welcome back to office politics - it's a jungle out there! Ha ha!

Anyway, I enjoy just being a locum, to appear at 8am and disappear at 4pm. Let them show fangs to each other, I'll have no part in it. Carry out my duties, and when it's time to knock-off, go!

The only downside for me was, tiredness at the end of the day. I had been a stay-home mum for two years, and there was never a rush to do things, like having to get Joseph out of bed so early in the morning. I had the whole day to do my chores before, now I had to do them back to back in the evenings. When Joseph cries at night and I had to get up to attend to him a few times, it became a huge burden to me now, ever since I started working. The lack of sleep and rest is giving me a short fuse. No, make that a very short fuse. Tensions arose and I quarelled with William.

Okay, I know, I know. I shouldn't have, I should be patient, I should be submissive to my husband, I shouldn't allow disharmony, and all that. I know all these, but at the moment it just happened. I would be a hypocrite to say that in all my three years of married life, things have been rosy and smooth-sailing all the time. This is not to say that we quarrel every hour of the day, or are constantly at each others' throats. All I am saying is that we do have our moments of (quoting Pastor Prince) "intense fellowship".

Living happily ever after, after the wedding bells, that doesn't exist in a real world, unless you live in Disneyland! Or maybe it does for you, then I just have to say congratulations for having found the right formula to make your marriage tick right from the start. No sarcasm here, I mean it, really.

Anyway, the Lord was good to me. I was encouraged by Abigail's sms-es and Poh Poh's recent email sharing, albeit of a slightly comical nature. When I had a real big fight with William, my care group leader, Justin said something that made me think, really think. We were supposed to have another talk with Justin soon, meanwhile I just want to sort out a few thoughts on my own first. Anyway, I am glad that next week I'll only be working three days. I would be able to have time to catch up on chores and get some rest in between, hah!

On Joseph now, he has been referred for speech therapy, yucks! I was pretty upset at first, but again my care group leader Justin, brought my focus back to Jesus' cross, which qualified us to receive all of His blessings. By all means, go for the speech therapy, he said, and let Joseph's progress astound everyone. Our own dear Pastor Prince who had been a stutterer, couldn't stop talking now. All glory to Jesus!

So that's that. I am still a growing christian, not a perfect human. No human is perfect, come to think of it, we all fall short in one way or another. Jesus, my Lord and Saviour, I lean on you, I look to you for wisdom and strength, to bring me through this life journey. In the midst of my faults, you raise me by Your grace. My sweet Lord, there is none other, no one as faithful as You. My eternal Righteousness, in You do I place my trust. Praise the Lord forevermore, amen!